It seems like so much has happened since I miscarried Gideon. For those of you who do not know, my husband and I do a lot of ministry in the area of abortion (if you couldn't tell from previous posts). We are the leaders of the Jackson Abolitionist Society and desire to see abortion completely abolished in all circumstances in every part of the world, with our target being America and more specifically Mississippi. Keith (my husband) was up at the abortion clinic on December 3 and recognized one of the women going in for consultation. She came to our previous church every now and then on Wednesday nights. He began talking with her and pleading with her not to kill her baby. He told her we would adopt. She went in the clinic. I got her number from a friend and texted her. She ended up telling us that we could adopt her baby. We were thrilled! I took her to the doctor last week and we found out she is having a girl at the end of April. So many emotions have been going through my mind. I can picture myself holding that sweet baby girl in the Spring, around the exact same time Gideon would've been born. The mom is now having second thoughts about the adoption. From the very beginning, I tried to not let myself set my hopes on getting the baby. I have memorized Psalm 138:8 and Isaiah 26:3 during this time. Psalm 138:8 says that the Lord WILL FULFILL His purpose for me. I apply that to my life in that if God wants me to have this baby, then I WILL have this baby. Nothing can thwart God's ultimate plan! Isaiah 26:3 says "You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast because he trusts in You." God will keep me at peace, no matter how crazy my emotions get or how unsteady life seems. As long as I keep my mind steadfast and make sure ALL of my trust is in Him, I will be at peace with anything that happens in my life.
When she first offered us her baby, I was thrilled simply because of the idea that God would be giving me the baby I lost back. The more I thought about it, the more I want this baby so that I can teach her about Jesus. I know that my biological children will grow up in the ways and knowledge of the Lord, but I do not know that for this baby. God has already given us such a love for this child. Regardless of what happens in this particular situation, I know that God has definitely used this to show Keith and I how much we desire to adopt/foster children in the future. Every child deserves to grow up in a home that shows them the love of God because God has adopted us. When we adopt these children, we are able to understand more fully what God did for us! It's powerful!
Please keep us in your prayers. The adoption lawyer will be in town on January 15, so we need the mom to make a solidified decision by the first of the year so that we can raise funds to pay the lawyer and do a home study. Pray that the mom would come to know Jesus in a real way and that she surrenders her life to Him. Pray that God's will be done!
Sonogram of sweet baby girl due April 2015
